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Some people may have conscience about what have they done and what kind of impacts may be caused by their own actions. Contrarily, some people are just too contemptuous to accept the truth. A truth that tells everyone except him the stupidity and ignorance presented by himself.

A wise man with bundles of defensive words is regarded as a fool who possesses guilt and timidity. He speaks out loud with strong stance, but unintentionally expresses his irrationalness.

Just like an arrogant swan. The more it honks, the less graceful it is.

Huey Fen

More often then we realize, we tend to post questions ourselves more than to anyone or nowadays to anything (especially search engines for me) else.

It is an important process to be critical and evaluate our current state or situation, but my question here is: Are we just waiting for the question to answer itself (and at the same time asking more) or making a conscious effort to clarify our own doubts and eventually finding a satisfying answer?

Huan Jin

August –  Started as a total noob. Almost job hop after 3 weeks at work to some start-up company. Absorbing like a sponge. Average 11 hour workday.

September – Busy. Becoming proficient at my work. Has some insights and knowledge. Still learning. Average 11 hour workday.

October – Work like mad. Realizing that I am resolving more then half the team’s issues. Average 12 hour workday. Multitasking.

November – Work like insane. Multitasking god knows how many things. Tired go home, wake up go work. Given Monthly Program Champion Award. Got promoted with pay rise and good benefits. Average 14 hour workday.

December – Work like mad sometimes. Still multitasking. Finally had some time with loved ones. Average 11 hour workday.

January - Work like mad again. Some not so desirable outcome with my project. Spends most of my time away from my desk fighting fire. Average 11 hour workday.

February - Feels odd having ‘normal’ workload. Taking initiative to value add. Ongoing. Uncertain of what is to come. Still looking forward to go to work everyday. Average 10 hour workday.

Huan Jin

But sometimes, we got to do a reality check. A check to understand what we are capable of achieving.  A check to know what can be done and what is just out of reach.

Reality checks are often painful and unpleasant as compared to encouragements because part of it involves letting ourselves know what we can’t do and make us to bring ourselves accept our own shortcomings or weaknesses. But it helps us to realign our goals and ambitions to make them reachable. Reaching a what might seem to be lower goal is for most people, is definitely more mood lifting than not being able to reach a perceived higher goal. Celebrating “small” wins helps to build confidence and provides the motivation needed to achieve other or further goals.

Encouragements are like keeping a faith which provides spiritual nourishment, whereas reality checks are like food which provide a practical solution to a problem; hunger.

Personally, I am more of a reality check person then an encouragement person because I believe that reality checks are more effective in helping me achieving my goals the long run.

Huan Jin

Chess pieces respond to your every instruction or will without any need for persuasion, convincing and motivation. But on the down side, they can’t value add, innovate nor be proactive.

In a game of chess, every move counts and that there is no turning back; and not to mention the clock is ticking as you make your move. Sometimes in an exciting game, I feel very much like I am playing the game of life.

Huan Jin

I thought I was good at mathematics when I was young. But as a I grew older, Mathematics became harder and harder to a point that sometimes I find myself struggling with it.

But through hard work and perseverance, I survived the challenging years of mathematics in JC and University.

For those who are facing difficulties with Mathematics, there is a video for you. It may not do wonders to your grades, but nevertheless  it is good entertainment.

Huan Jin

At least that is my definition of true friends.

It is not difficult for me to tell who my true friends are. Some friends look for you when they need something and disappears when you are of “no value”. While true friends walk side by side with you in the journey of life, through thick and thin, and help you along the way.

Some of us might have a lot of  ”buddies”, but how many of them are really our true friends?

Huan Jin

Why are we trying so hard to guess when we can just ask? Why are we digging into the past when we can formulate insights about the future? Why do we try so hard to understand ourselves when we can just ask someone important to us to be our mirror?

Instead of peering though the window at the person in the next building and trying to understand why he/she is looking at you, why not try to find a means to communicate?

Huan Jin

Before that, everyone of us was given chance to lit our own lanterns and at that particular moment, I noticed that some of us were clumsy with unfolding the paper lanterns, while some were just not having intelligence and skills in playing with candles. Huan Jin and I were the logistic ICs, therefore, we drove there without joining the “lanterns crowd” . In the car, I heard laughter and saw smiles on the others’ happy faces. I realized that this was what we are longing for in the normal school & hall life, that’s friends and weekends with friends.

I really enjoyed the celebration. Happy Mid-Autumn!

Huey Fen